Ever since I returned to school from my winter break, I’ve noticed that my motivation to work on my novel is somewhat lacking. That seems to be how it goes with me, though. Over summer and winter breaks, I’m a force to be reckoned with when it comes to my writing. At school, on the other hand, I can barely complete my writing assignments without a break every five seconds, much less get any work done on my novel. It’s frustrating, to say the least. My goal is to have it published by the end of my senior year (which is next school year), and how will I reach that goal when I can’t even bring myself to pull up the document on my computer? You’d think that majoring in Fiction Writing would mean that I would have a lot of time and motivation to work on my own personal projects, but no. Most of my time is taken up by reading classic literature as they attempt to mold us into the next great American author.
If I’m being honest, I don’t even want to be the next great American author. Those lofty goals are not for me. I mean, if I accidentally happen to write the next great American novel, cool, but that isn’t what I’m working toward. I’d be perfectly content with my career resembling that of Richelle Mead. Decent-sized fan base, a steady stream of novels being written and published, and consistent interactions with fans via social media. But my school doesn’t get that. They don’t understand that I want to write Young Adult novels (with maybe a few Middle Grade and Adult novels thrown in there for good measure), so they give me reading and writing assignments that suck away my will to do any reading or writing for fun.
Maybe this is a case of motivation vs. discipline, like I mentioned in my last entry. Maybe I just have to open that document and write, whether I feel like it or not. I know that I’m always happier when I’m working on my novel. I get legitimately giddy whenever I talk to someone about it. So instead of sitting around and watching MTV’s ‘Awkward’ all day like I have been for the past week, maybe I should just force myself to buckle down and work. Eventually, it might just flow like it used to.
Have any of you had this problem before? I feel like everyone’s experienced a case of good, old-fashioned writer’s block. If you have, tell me about it and how you got past it. I could probably use all of the help I can get.